Obstacles

An obstacle has recently been thrown my way and I am struggling a little with how to handle it. I never was very good at handling difficulties, since my life was pretty easy when i was growing up, so when something like this comes in my way I find it very hard at first. I have gotten much better at it as I have forced myself to do things that scare me, if it is a step in the path towards the life I want to have, like moving to Aberdeen to study journalism, going to Thailand on my own, and moving here, to Edinburgh, without a job or a place to live, and with the plan to "figure it out once I get there". And I did.

So now I face a boulder on the road ahead that I can either choose to climb over or turn away from. There are pros and cons to both decisions, which is what makes it confusing. My mind has been going back an forth like crazy, but that's part of the decision making process, I guess, but frankly, it's mainly because of one big question mark I have on my mind. Until I get the answer to that I can't make a decision. I need the answer first.