And then came the waterworks

I'm not usually very emotional when it comes to goodbyes. Normally I don't really feel sad when I say my last goodbyes to people and I tend to just want to get them over with because they make me uncomfortable. The sadness of saying goodbye usually doesn't sink in until long after I've done it. So it was the same yesterday morning when I had to say goodbye to the girls. It just didn't feel real that I might not see them again (god forbid) and to be honest, I have tried to emotionally detach myself just because I knew the goodbye was coming.

But as I sat on the ferry just thinking about my time in Thailand, the tears just started falling. I didn't sit there sobbing away, but the tears did start rolling down my cheeks, which I had to wipe away before anyone saw. I decided to go outside, and stood there alone watching Koh Tao grow smaller as the distance between me and the island grew, silently crying. So that's evidence of just how much I love these people and how much I'm going to miss them! I guess when you spend almost everyday together for a month, and you get along, you will get attached no matter how much you try not to.

To think that a week ago I couldn't wait to get to Portugal to see my parents, and now I just want to jump off this boat and swim back to Koh Tao, and I want my friends to do the same so we can all just stay in paradise forever. I am excited to see my parents and to chill in Portugal with them, but I'm just not ready to let go of all my newfound friends. They're so ace and I'm going to miss them so much. I really failed at not getting attached to these people. Totally and completely failed.