My heart has just been shattered into a million pieces

And it's not because of a guy or a friend doing me wrong, but because I've just seen the Thai version of a dog shelter. The way these dogs are kept – crammed into concrete cages where they are walking around in their own pee, all barking and whining – is awful and it really upsets me. I mean yes, there were veterinarians there taking care of some of the sick dogs, but most were just left there in their cages.

One dog was so terrified of everything that it was crouching to be as small as possible, its tail licking its stomach, shaking and barking its head off when anyone approached.

Another dog was stumbling around in a circle with what looked like a mix of drool and vomit hanging from her mouth. She was just skin and bones and could barely stand up, yet she was so anxious that she wouldn't stop moving. One of the guys working there pointed to her and gestured what I understood to be a gun, so she is going to put down. But the way he gestured seemed to be like all of the dogs in that cage were all waiting for the same fate.

There were some dogs running around in a big outside area, but most of them ran away if you came close, indicating that they were also scared of us. This all leads me to think about what terrible things could have happened to them before they came to this shelter. The idea is so horrible I just want to break down and cry my eyes out. Or I want to throw up. I wish I could take care of them all and make sure they got a good home.